After a month or so

Hmm. I think it have been a month or so since i wrote any messages. I felt so busy!! $$$ so important... In this 1 month, i have experience joy, sorrow, pain.... You know what life is filled off? Haha.. Its filled with assignments.... hehe... anyway really got a lot of assignments due.... have been giving myself lots of pressure and stress in order to score good grades to cross over to degree... i really have put in a lot of effort... My only destress method now is to meet dear once in a week to go out walk walk... i think thats important to me.. being with him gives me a sense of belonging and happiness.. knowing he is there for u and that u can trust him to take care of you. Its just like at that moment the world is only the 2 of us... haha... so much thoughts today.. i will be moving... moving to my granny house... hmmm... but of course i still need to give rental.. i have been out of 'home' since more than a year.. whenever i felt like crying or i need someone to hug at night, i will hug my piglet and start crying to release my longing for family love... or shall i say 'father' love.. i miss my dad alot... is god really fair... or is anything fair... my lecturer always says that the there is nothing fair in the world.. i agree!!! if fair, i will not be feeling this way... will i be happy... what is happy? how do we define happy? Am i asking for too much... i really wan a family photo... thats my wish really... yah.. haiz... y am i making myself so emotional again... cheer up Jo... you will have your own family soon... you sure will get your happiness...